1st day after he is gone

couldnt sleep for the whole night

i know i should move on but i cant at this moment
i messaged andrew bout simba's incident and he didnt blame me but he cried
i was so depressed when i heard him crying
he loves him as much as i do
he misses him even more than me because they are wid me for more than two weeks
sorry bee

i know ure very sad
but it happened
with sign which i didnt noticed.
i was crying on the way to coll yesterday without reason
i thought am juz emo-ing
but actually it's an indication
god had indicate me but i didnt notice.

how i wish ure here

give me a big hug

lend me your shoulder

to cry until i fall asleep
i know sis is blaming herself for letting him on the sofa

it's so hurt

when she toldme she cant return simba to me
he died because of he stuck in the sofa and lack of Oxygen
tat's what i guess
think of his stupidity when i look at yea tzi
she still thinks i let simba to somewhere but to keep her in the cage
so she keep biting the cage
wants me to let her out
everytime i look at the cage
it's so empty without him
memories flash back from the day i bought him
simba is named for him because he is very fierce.
i know i really should move on
but there's so many reasons pulling me back to those memories
eyes swell, nose red
i look like an ET now
i miss you la simba
tears rolling down again .. haihs